I lost my job today.  Apparently I wasn't performing up to task, so rather than demote me, they just decided to "let me go".  I'm not terribly unhappy because I haven't been happy at this job for a little while now.  At the same time, I don't have a safety net in place, so I'm not sure if I'm going to land on my feet this time, or my ass.  It's a kind of scary freefall, that is also exhilirating.  I'm spending time with my kids that I feel has been stolen from them by this company for a while, and that makes me happy.  Tomorrow I'm going with my wife to take my son and some of his friends out for his birthday, something that I originally wasn't going to be able to do.  So I suppose unemployment isn't so bad.  It's the circumstances that bother me, really.  Everyone I have told keeps saying "they don't know what they're losing".  I guess that they don't.  I know what I'm losing, though, and a part of me is sad to see it go.

I don't know what God's plan is right now, and it's really scary.  I don't know where He's going to lead me.  I've never been behind the eight ball like this, and I know that God is in control, and I know that He's going to take care of me and my family, but I'm still a frightened about the future right now.  More so than normal.  I say, however, in the words of the praise chorus:

Blessed be Your name/On the road marked with suffering

Though there is pain in the offering/Blessed be Your name

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